**This blog post contains a level 4 rant. Rants are ranked out of 5, where the higher the rank the more fury was added into the post. DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE ALLERGIC TO SWEAR WORDS or IF YOU HAVE PISSED ME OFF "SLIGHTLY" ON THE SAME DAY.

Kind of blur today. Internship was a bitch really fun. We got to transcribe videos of teachers teaching using Inquiry Based Learning methods, which was kind of bitchy tedious, but satisfying. I mean, scrounging videos for the time and class filmed is really really bitchtacular cool, like a bitch's detective's job (Yu Chuan's NO SHIT, SHERLOCK comes to mind).

I've cut down my tweets as SMSing is expensive. I want to cry. I dunno why. For the beauty of life? For the people with Aids around the world? For the tiny things in life that annoy me?

Speaking of annoyance: I am extremely annoyed with the Internship Programme. No, not at the otherworldly AMDON CONSULTING PTE LTD. Why complain every single minute about every single job you have to do because "WALAO EH IT'S 2 WEEKS OF MY HOLIDAYS", if you SIGNED UP for it, and you already KNEW that it was going to be that long? Why go "I CURSE THIS COMPANY TO HELL " if you actually WORRIED during the interview that you might have not succeeded in entering?

AND, ONE BLOODY IRONIC THING THAT REALLY PISSES ME OFF IS THAT YOU ACTUALLY BLAME THE COMPANY FOR HAVING "AP", WHICH I PRESUME TO BE "ATTITUDE PROBLEM". WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK. WHAT. THE. FUCK. You can complain all you want, but once you start being a FUCKING hypocrite, that really fucks me off. No, actually, once you start complaining about everything: "WALAO DAMN SIAN" "WALAO WHAT STUPID TRANSCRIPT" "WALAO STUPID PROGRAMMING" "WALAO I WANT TO SWEAR" "WALAO THIS STUPID TUTORIAL FAILS" Then you'll really know what 'wrath' is. Seriously, what is your fucking problem, other than everything that is not YOU? Yes, you "WANT TO SWEAR LIAO", you "WANT TO CRY LIAO" and you "ARE REALLY PISSED OFF LIAO", but you NEVER-FUCKING-EVER DO ANY OF THOSE. And you sound like a whiny, fucking pathetic brat if you say all those. Read through your own blog posts, and look at it from someone who thinks that you are trying to seek attention. See how everything fits? Look, I do not care if those are your "true feelings". If you continue to whine like life's a bitch at you, then I will kindly prepare your flowers for your funeral during N-fucking-S.

Yes, I may sound like a huge hypocrite, going "YOU FUCKING ASS WITH A FUCKING ATTITUDE PROBLEM", but look, I've been through the roughest times I've ever been. I'm at the bottom of my class, and the secondmost bottom in CSE. To save my fucking arse, I need to get at least an MSG of 3.5 next term. This term, I have an MSG of 5.

But do I complain? No. Do I swear? No. Fuck, do I even cry? NO FUCKING WAY. I worked badly, and I deserve that grade. But how about you? You have amazing results and a good reputation. But, whoa, when one itsy bitsy piece of homework comes in... BAM! EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN, MOTHERFUCKERS! When you have to stay up till 12mn... POW! LIFE'S NOT WORTH LIVING, BITCH! Damn it, do you have the emotional capacity of a zooplankton?

I'm a very moral-based person. I get titchy when others are "imperfect", in that sense. It could be entirely not my business when you complain, but I feel that it is my duty to give "suggestions" and "comments" in order to improve everyone for the "greater good". Heck, you can even ignore this post, and I'll never mention this. However, I hope that instead of being a whiny arse, you can make full use of your capabilities, and become someone that everyone will at least not have a bad view of. Yes, this might be harsh, but then this anger has been bottled up for a fucking long time. Sorry if this makes you want to commit suicide, but there are a few trillion things worth NOT dying for. I hope we will still be friends, even after how harsh this post is. I might have been so angry that I didn't know what I was saying, but I'm sure I do, and I mean it. Thanks.

Phew.


Signing off,
Tan Shao Yun

Labels: Internship, rant